Above original 3D GIF created in Cinema 4D by Thoth
I have many physical pains but one of the ways of dealing with them is that I invite them in to the party. I find that when I don’t accept them in they make more noise and clamor. As soon as I say “Welcome! We are now companions for life” they quiet down. In certain cases almost completely.
I used – and continue – to hate when someone goes on and on about pains they have. They are their only topic of conversation. Every time I am with them they speak of the pains they are suffering from. My mother has tried to coax me into talking about pains. I refuse. The only thing I say to pain is: “You won’t stop me from doing my being duty. In fact, all of you are my allies towards the full expression of my death dance – to transform you from suffering into pure love.”
Better morning than most. Sunrise is such a beautiful time of the day.
A mother just said her baby starts crying like crazy during sunset. Funny, that’s what I do (not as openly as she does). That’s why I like prayforming at sunset.
I feel like an alchemist when I prayform. All my feelings – anger, sadness, envy, hurt, . . . – (lead) are transformed into love (gold).
Death dance is my ultimate goal.
Death is around us today. Our housemate went on his final journey at about 11 AM. Strange! We hardly knew him but are mightily affected.